They say that going through the state of LIMBO is confusing. Sure as hell it is! Coupled with all the pain and shock I am going through now, it truly feels like LIMBO already.
I never thought I would be going through this again. Never thought I will so lonely once again. I am lonely. I am sad. I am miserable. I am in LIMBO.
Why? How could I have been so stupid to let this happen to me again? What was I thinking? Who the hell did I think was I? Shcmuck.
You should have seen all of this coming. This was doomed from the beginning. Too many people not wanting it to work. They've finally got their deepest wishes.
I should have not let my heart into it too much. Trying to love all those people that mattered to the one I cherrished. These people who do not have the capacity to try to let you in easily. Making sure everything get hard and harder for you to blend. Making you feel like a misfit from the start to the end. Yes, finally, it is the end. For my heart has stopped feeling just to protect it from the PAIN.
But it lingers...still PAINFUL...in LIMBO.
