Rewards

Having been recently diagnosed as a diabetic did not come as a shock knowing how I did not really watch my diet and I had such a crazy lifestyle all these years. Still, it is very overwhelming and the sudden changes to my diet have been very hard and at the same very tedious on my part. It is also hard for the people surrounding me because they all have to somehow also 'sacrifice' not enjoying what they used to so that I wouldn't feel left out. Immediately after my diagnosis, my family had to get rid of all the chocolates and sweets at home because they did not want me feeling sad whenever they would eat them and it was one of the things that I had to avoid even having small portions of. My doctor specifically told me to avoid pork, beef, sweets, pasta and all of the other stuff I was used to eating all the time.

I knew it was going to be hard and I knew that a lot of changes will be happening to my lifestyle. I followed my doctor religiously. It gets frustrating when I know I have followed all the rules and have avoided all of the food that I really love and the darned glucometer still comes up with high results. I just don't understand how I could get normal numbers. Everything is still fluctuating as if I am doing nothing and not taking my medications on time. I have been sticking to white meat and water and not eating even when I feel a little bit hungry to the point that sometimes I think I am already being deprived. I am doing everything to try to remedy my condition.

The only upside to all of these sacrifices is the fact that I am beginning to lose weight and a lot of people have commented that I am truly starting to get slimmer. This makes me look forward to having a better physique and wearing the clothes that I have longed to use. Another reward is the opportunity to do more activities with a better physique. 

Thank you to everyone who have been backing me up and to those the have been genuinely encouraging to my quest for a healthier body! All of you are the real rewards I am receiving despite all of the things that have happened. Knowing that I have family and real friends I could depend on make me stronger and have better resolve to make myself better to live longer, spend more time with all of you and allow myself to love all of you more!